I would start this post with ..."Dear Diary, last week was a tough one! I am glad it is over and Sunday starts anew!!"Looking back I see the major problem...ME!! I know exactly what I did...TO MUCH! I wanted to prove to myself I COULD do it. I could barely sleep, get up and run, teach a full day then run kids all over the place. All the while tote my infant around hoping he would be game for all of this. He just needed to fit into MY plan.
When I came back Drew was sitting happily in her lap...NOT CRYING.
And that is what I would write in my diary. I would probably add a few more details about other things that happened last week. Like on Thursday night when I went to a baptism class and I was surrounded by other new mama's. All tired!! All loving their babies. All trying to do the right things for these little people. Being in that room made me feel so...good. I felt like I was part of this wonderful group of people called moms. Simply put...women who have babies and are trying to do everything they can...give all they can. I am one of them. I try. I am trying and sometimes I need to try harder in a different way.
Here's to a new week...and new turn at getting things right. Hoping to have better days this week..and I think I will.
p.s. One of my friends is waiting for me to mail something back to her. I just wanted to tell her that I am so sorry. I must admit to having a hard time getting to the post office the last 2 weeks. I will get it to you SOON!!