Friday, July 29, 2011
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
"How are you Lisa?"
So the bottom line is..I stopped crying..stopped feeling sorry for myself, planned for the 1st 4 weeks of 5th grade and the 1st weeks of 3rd grade..and now I feel..EXCITED!! I get to do this!! I GET TO DO THIS!!!
And by the way I had a GREAT time with my friend Kimberly and I never cried once!!
Monday, July 25, 2011
Sunday, July 24, 2011
But maybe what I should have really taken from the whole experience is some people are great helpers...I AM NOT!!!
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Things happen for a reason and sometimes we don't understand the reason until all is said and done. I know I am not the only person to point that out but when something happens to you and you have clarity on the "why" it feels...profound.
I know God used me today for a specific reason and I feel so honored to have been part of His plan. Let me explain....
..."The Tepeyac Family Clinic!" This clinic is a pro-life clinic that has devoted itself to helping women protect the sanctity of life and they do lots of it for free. I called 2 weeks ago and got my appointment for YESTERDAY at 10:15. On Tuesday the office called to CONFIRM my WEDNESDAY appointment. Great..all systems GO!!
After he saw this was my 10th pregnancy he said to me.."I know we are not supposed to give you an ultrasound today..but I am sure after all those losses you would like to see this baby." This guy ROCKS!! He shows me my baby and all is good with the world!!
He then leads me to a small office to ask me if I have any more questions and I say.."Not really..just..is this going to hurt as much as last time?" He just laughed and said, "You'll have to tell me!!"
He the bows his head and begins praying for me and my baby...for a blessed pregnancy and healthy outcome for all....
You need to open a chain of these clinics!" He stops dead still, stares at me REALLY hard and REALLY long and then he drops his head in his hands and begins to cry!! I have to say ..I was FREAKING out..did he misunderstand me? Did I insult him?? Why did I say such a silly thing after such a beautiful prayer...who talks about franchising something after someone prays over you...
He responds "I can not believe you just said that right after our prayer. I opened this clinic 18 years ago with the intention of opening more. Things never worked out and there was no call to do that. All of a sudden this year I have had people from all over the country asking me to come and PLEASE open a clinic in their area. My wife and I have been praying and trying to decide what God would have us do. Me opening more clinics would take me away from here and that is going to be hard to do. But we wanted to do God's will. And just this morning I sat in prayer asking God to please give me a clear answer, a clear message. I feel like I have waited and prayed so long I just want to know and then the first patient I have this morning says so clearly to me..you need to open up a chain. I just can't believe you said that."
It was a cool moment. I was humbled..God used me. He had me speak for Him. He helped someone through me. It all of a sudden felt so INTENTIONAL...so specific..so PLANNED!! The appointment mistake..the Dr. switch...Pete going to work later...me missing a fun night at a friends...it all made sense.
And try to remember....HE HAS BETTER ONES!!