I have know for awhile that you can not freeze time. You can not stop the clock from ticking ahead. And some days waiting for what comes next is the only thing that keeps me going.
But Holy Thursday was a day that I wish I could freeze and replay over and over. My Molly made her First Holy Communion and it was such a special day. I keep wishing I could go back to that day just to feel that pure joy again for just a moment.
All First Communions are special. Most kids are thrilled to finally be able to receive Christ like their parents. Two years ago when Emily had her special day we enjoyed every moment. Our life was a little upside down during that time, but we made it special for her. But I have to admit that with Emily I was not sure how to prepare her for this big day. We read all the things we were supposed to. I had been taking her to daily mass on and off for 7 years by then.
I did the best I could to prepare her but I was new at the whole thing so there were some holes. Emily was amazing and she received her communion despite my failings.
But Emily did more than just receive her communion 2 years ago, she also received the gift of leading her sister to the Eucharist. She became everything Molly wanted to be. Since the day Emily received Molly became hungry to be like Emily and "get communion". She had such a strong desire to be close to Jesus and she stayed that hungry for the past 2 years.
After Emily made her communion Molly begged me to find a priest that would let her receive early. There was no way she could wait 2 years!!!
But wait she did, and during that time her sister continued to lead her.
And finally on Holy Thursday we all watched Molly's dream come true. It was so special to all of us and I soaked in the love those 2 girls have for each other.
You would have thought it was Emily's big day. She knew how much this meant to Molly and she celebrated each moment with her.
To watch Molly that day you knew the Holy Spirit was with her. She was ready, she was willing and so open to all the grace God had saved for her. She was well prepared and I can say for sure that I was not the only one that prepared her for that day.
God touched her a long time ago with a special heart that is filled with love for Him.
And now Molly gets to celebrate recieving her communion any time she wants....
And I pray that each time she recieves she will remember the feeling of gratitude and love she felt that night.
We all felt it...she glowed..she warmed the room and I know it was one of the most amazing nights of my life. I just felt so close to God and so happy to be in the moment. I wish I could bottle that feeling. I wish I could recall it any time...it was that good!!
We enjoyed a great dinner afterward with several friends and by the end of the night my face hurt from smiling and I did not want the night to end.
And in typical Lisa fashion I did not get several pictures that I wanted to get. It is so hard to be in the moment watching it all happen and also take the right pictures. I wanted a picture with Molly. I wanted to remember my smile on that night because I know it was big. It will always be in my heart. I loved that night. I love that Molly and I love being Catholic!!