Wednesday, February 3, 2016
"Love the person, not the personality!"
Those words were spoken by my priest this weekend in his homily. It was exactly what I needed to hear. He was talking about a story from long ago when he first became a priest. There was a change of leadership at a church where the pastor was very dynamic and well loved by his parishioners. The new pastor was not seen as enthusiastic as the previous priest. The congregation was frustrated and began writing letters trying to convince whoever would listen that the new pastor was not doing a good job.
After awhile the dynamic priest became aware of his former parishes complaint. He found an excuse to come back one weekend and celebrate mass. He began mass by apologizing to everybody in the pews..at first people were relieved thinking he was saying sorry he left them. But he went on, "I'm sorry I failed you all. You see, I may have built a great, thriving parish but I clearly missed teaching you all to love. You must love the person, not just the personality."
He went on to explain that we love Christ..therefore must love who is in "persona Christi"...in place of Christ....even if we don't LOVE the personality!
I sat there on Sunday, just having wrapped up a pretty weepy week, stunned. I have a child that I was failing to LOVE...and it was exactly for this reason..PERSONALITY !!
My sweet child and I can struggle to get along sometimes and I was thinking all week that I just wished I had the key to fixing it. I remember thinking that...what am I missing...
LOVE...not performance....not attention...not expectations...not failures....not hurt feelings...not past mistakes..just LOVE.
Simple...not the personality...THE PERSON!!
... not the grades produced....The PERSON!
.... not the conversations we have or don't have....THE PERSON!
Friday, January 29, 2016
Where to begin...maybe to say I think a change of name on this very neglected blog may be in order...
The Little House That Moves (seems as though the growing part is sadly over).
We are headed back to DC! We took a 3 year detour from DC when we moved here to Alaska...but we are headed back.
We have decided to move to Maryland this time. I love Virginia..and I wanted to slip right back to where we left. But we have found that you NEVER really move back. Moving forward is tricky when you are moving "back". We thought we were moving "back" here to Sitka..but time makes going "back" near impossible.
We are excited about where we seem to be ending up. Leaving here will be a struggle for all of us. You get very used to 9 miles of road...8000 people and a very very calm way of life. Simple is an understatement. Life is nowhere like this in the DC area. We know that! We are all bracing ourselves for what we know will be a very hard transition.
But this is how it goes..there is always good with the hard..and hard with the good.
It has been hard to reflect on because for a long time I was in denial that I was going to leave here. In the midst of struggling with weather and lack of seeing family I knew this place has been good for my kids and they all LOVE it here. And taking them away from what they LOVE is hard...
But this mama who has been Island bound for a very long time...little sun...no visit's with her mama and a ridiculous amount of difficulty getting my hands on simple essentials like boys boxer briefs without waiting 2 weeks for amazon to deliver is getting VERY excited for what is to come.
And the best part is..I have found a church...a really good church. Done!
Now we get to enjoy Sitka for 5 more months and I get to know that I loved almost every minute and I will forget the gray skies and rain a soon as we get south. I always remember the very best of the place you leave..and I will leave a very big part of my heart here!
Monday, December 14, 2015
It is 3:00. Pretty much dark...not pitch black dark, but definitely getting close. It was very cold over the weekend with ice everywhere, but not much snow. My kids still managed to eat handfuls and have their hands freezing within minutes of stepping outside.
I have a fresh garland hanging over my front door this year with white lights and I love it. I'm not much of an outside decorator...but I do love lights on the outside and I appreciate other people who do it.
It would be awesome to have a cold Christmas break this year. Then we would have snow and not just rain. Which makes it brighter and putting the extra work aside...way more fun to be out in.
We have not been outside much in a few months. The kids have been so busy and it getting dark by 3:30 makes it hard to be out after school.
And just for the record...I am NOT complaining...I am recording. This is it for our Alaska Christmas/Winter. I will love every minute.
What I Am Reading:
I have mostly been listening to books this fall. The last one I finished was The End of the Affair by Graham Green. It was good. Not the best book to run to at 5:00 am...but I did enjoy it.
I also listened to Fahrenheit 451, Seven Men and Seven Woman by Eric Metaxas, Bradstreet Gate by Robin Kirman, Everything that Rises Must Converge by Flannery O'Connor....
But I have a new obsession when it comes to listening while running, Catholic Stuff You Should Know and This American Life podcast.
What I Am Making:
I knit a sweater with Brooklyn Tweed yarn. It took me awhile to finish and I do love it. I wish I knit the sleeves a little longer. I have knit several hats...that have been promptly lost.
I have been making people $$ at all the bake sales I have been asked to do. I built a lemonade stand this summer and it has been well traveled around town. I have made $800-$1700 for the organizations that were raising money. I love doing them...but after the weekend is over I am usually like...that is the last one I am doing...
I have also been a bit obsessed with making iced sugar cookies. And like everything else I get obsessed with I instantly create a future for myself doing that particular "craft". So in my mind I have been the owner of: a yarn store that sells my own died yarn, a pie shop, a rustic furniture store with my own crafted rustic stuff, and now a Sugar Cookie Shop...
And the reality of my life sets in....
What I Know;
My house is for sale and that is all together stressful, sad and exciting at the same time.
My oldest daughter is so sad about leaving...as we all are, but she is especially sad. My poor girl.
I love my Christmas tree this year. I got it at an vintage pop up shop in town and I am so in love with my vintage Christmas tree...and I put white lights on it.
Monday, November 9, 2015
I used to have so much to say here in this space. I would compose blog posts while I ran, while I showered. Pretty much all the time I was thinking about writing something. But lately, like the last 3 years, I have had very little to say. I still love the idea of sharing a glimpse of my life...I just am not sure what is worth sharing anymore.
I hate to say that I have been so busy it has been hard for me to find the time to write here...because I always hate hearing how people are "so busy" they do not have the time...I have plenty of time I spend doing LOTS of other things. But I just don't seem to find myself in front of this screen often.
And right now with so many growing people around me I am VERY aware of the things I am doing they are VERY much observing. I don't like them spending much time in front of screens. So I try to set an example. So there. That is a little bit of what has been going on.
I have been VERY busy setting an example. And sometimes I realize I am doing a horrible job...or maybe I should see it as showing an example of how NOT to behave. Since my kids are in school and away from me the majority of the day I have to be even more tuned in when I do get to be with them.
And lately my brain is filled with doing and saying the right thing in this house..to these people. I wish I had some wisdom to share here. The only wisdom I have to share is ...boy, being a mama is the most heartbreaking wonderful thing I will ever get to do. But I think us mama's all get that. That's not news to anyone...but some days I am OVERWHELMED with gratitude that I get to do this.
I am starting the wrap up process over here. There was a small window when we thought we would get to stay here in Sitka for 2 more years. That was pretty exciting for us to think about not having to move..staying in one place for 5 years. In this place. But the window closed for us, but opened for someone else. We are grateful to have been brought back here. But it is time to start the whole leaving process and I kind of love/fear/loath this part.
The do-er in me loves to get things done, paint walls, move furniture, get rid of things....make things happen. I put a lot of work into selling our house and it can be fun when you get into making it all come together and somebody else likes it enough to buy it.
But my poor family. They have to live with me literally cleaning up under them ...
So..if anyone is in the market for a super cute house in Southeast Alaska..please let me know. I would love to check that off my list.
Monday, October 5, 2015
When I set out to have kids never did I imagine I would have 6. My faith was not a big part of my life in the beginning of my parenting journey. And now I can't imagine doing one without having the other.
I was pretty late to the game when it came to relationship with God. And I would still consider myself a freshman in faith. And to think of where I was when I was a teen, I could only use the word...inconvenienced. Me being Catholic was a major damper when it came to my young self. I HAD to go to CCD...mass occasionally...that was it. And that was enough to be burdened by God at that age.
I was so removed that I did not even realize I was removed.
But now I have teens...and my hope is they don't have the same detachment that I did. I very much want them to be attached . But the truth is...they may not be. They will question, and deny and turn away. We all do. They will to. Jesus had people turn away right in front of him. I will not be more persuasive than Him...I am sure of that.
I will do things differently then some...and other ways may be better...but my greatest prayer is that each of them will love God and rely on him and have Him be part of their life. I know faith does not make things easier..or better...or more fun in a teens mind. But I HOPE they will find it was worth it.