Friday, April 24, 2015

Friday Things That Make Me Smile







This week...

I had 2 moms show up for Rosary group.  THAT. FELT. GREAT.

I celebrated St. George's feast day with a cake and some Playmobil dragons.

I cried a few days in a row.

I finished Brideshead Revisited and LOVED it.  It took a little bit to get into...but now it won't leave my brain.

I also finished Brain on Fire...which was a little slow going for me.  My friend LOVED it...but after reading Still Alice I just get terrified over what can happen to me.

I am now going to read a really pretty copy of Emma.  Reading pretty books makes it more fun.

Jack had his first game on Tuesday in Minors for Little League, Lucy has her first game Friday night.  Drew was such a good boy this week and I was ever so happy that he saw the play with us last week.  It just feels official that we are a family of 8...he was not left home with a babysitter.  It was a big night for us.

We watched the movie Big Eyes on Sunday night and it was really good....people have crazy stories.

My mom and dad are visiting soon and I am so excited about seeing has been way to long.

The sun came out and is supposed to stay for 3 days...Life. Is. Good.

Thursday, April 23, 2015


saying YES











The other day I was talking with my mom and told her something I had been praying about.  She said to me, "Maybe you should ask for a sign..a specific direction that confirms what you are asking."

And I immediately told her..."I did that mom, and He sent me a very specific sign, but I am not sure the sign He sent me was the answer I I am waiting for another one."

Not exactly fair play.  Please God answer my prayer, as long as it is the answer I want it to be, otherwise I will wait and do nothing???

Now I need the grace to say Yes when I know He has put something on my heart.

Small steps...


Yesterday was kind of a crummy day.  I let it get the best of me and it was SO tiring.  It is very exhausting being mad all day...not a super great use of time.  But last night, after we all were back together I was restored and refreshed.  My little eye-roller felt just as crummy as I did and we made even more progress in the whole "this is life" category.  I have to remember that sometimes the crummy days are sometimes more fruitful than the GLORIOUS ones...

Wednesday, April 22, 2015

Did Zlie Martin Ever Get MAD at her saintly daughter??








I know St. Theresa was not a saint when she was a child.  I realize through God's grace and her obedience she gave her whole life to our Lord...and became a saint after much trial and suffering.

But this morning as I sit here STEAMING mad at a few people I live with I have to wonder if Saints moms ever got STEAMING mad...

Did Zlie Martin ever have St. Theresa roll her eyes at her and Zlie loose it...It's not unthinkable to imagine a teenager getting snippy with any mother, right?  Even if that mother was NOT in the least deserving....

I can take eye rolling, sometimes...ignore it, and after much work I can even sometimes laugh at the ridiculous reaction....but every now and again I get so MAD at the whole ordeal..  

And the Catholic me is at war with the angry me....

"Peace and patience"....NO!!  I'm too mad.

"Mercy and forgiveness".......NO!! I'm too MAD.

"Be a good example and don't do the mother equivalent to eye rolling"...NO!!  I'm too MAD.

I would like to have that catholic part of me come out quicker when I am getting frustrated but unfortunately the MAD part has no problem RUSHING to the surface.

And without Zlie would there have been a St. Theresa?

Did St. Theresa roll her eyes?

Did her mother react?

Tuesday, April 21, 2015

"What Do You Want Today Lord"

PicMonkey Photo





When He has you in a certain place at a certain time and you are not sure of the reason, the best thing I have found to do is just pray, "What do you want today Lord"....

Sometimes I can't look much further than today.  I want to know the answer and reason for everything right here, right now.  But when I say the simple prayer, "what do you want today Lord," I try and remember to stay in the here and now.

When the rain has not stopped since Easter Sunday..I have to stay in the moment.....

When the play is over and my busy little girl wants to know what is next...I have to stay in the moment...

When we begin to talk about the next move, 1 year from now, I have to stay in the moment....

When I feel the pull to homeschool on my heart but am afraid of the challenges it would bring in this location, I have to stay in the moment...

"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid"
John 14:27

Monday, April 20, 2015

Merry Wife and Pistol











What a ride these two have me on.  Every day I find myself wondering what the end will look like for these two VERY different sisters.  One sister keeps things pretty close to her heart.  We have had a rough entry into school but I am seeing this sweet girl become all that she should.  The greatest struggles with this sister has taught me the very true meaning of Mercy.

One priest explained mercy as "pity in your heart", to have pity and compassion for the struggles of others.  I have such mercy for my sweet teen girl.  It is not easy being a teen today and I can only imagine it not being easy being my little test child.

The oldest sister was inspired by her younger sister when she watched her perform as Annie.  She wanted in on the action.  She tried out for the last play and got cast in a major role as one of the wives in the play The Merry Wives of Windsor by William Shakespeare.  She nailed it.  It was set in the 1950's and she played a housewife...she loved it and she looked amazing!!

These two girls can memorize anything...something I attribute to our early days from learning at home.  Emily memorized her lines and many of the other players lines as well...I loved watching her mouth the lines of others...

And the little sister...the one who shares her heart so freely and right hand girl in all pre-teen!! The little girl I want to keep little just to have her stay ...not all the way grown up.  This sister shows me the meaning of patience EVERYDAY...not because she makes me practice it...but because I see her living it....

She was also in the play and had a much smaller role than her last...but she was AMAZING in it.  The perfect player in every sense...she played her small part very big and made it a stand out performance.

The journey these two are on is so fun to watch and be part of.  I do not do all things right or even well..but I know how to say sorry and I remember they are watching.  But mostly I remember they will not always be who they are right now..they will only get better with time..

Thursday, April 16, 2015

Under The Veil and In An Apron

I'm a super visual person.  I guess you could even say highly sensitive, not in the emotional way, in the I like all my senses to be engaged way.  I like things to look pretty around me. I like to look pretty.  I like to do things that create pretty things.

I have always gotten "dressed" .  For me that means I get on my "mama uniform", comfortable outfit that looks cute, makeup, hair done and definitely some shoes.  I wear shoes all day long.  If I'm not wearing shoes then I don't feel like doing anything.


And that goes for my apron too.  I wear an apron almost ALL DAY LONG.  First thing, I am super splashy.  I seem to drip, slip, and make a  general mess with all that I do.  The apron protects my clothes.  And it puts me in a working frame of mind.  When I tie that apron I know it is time to do some work and get things done.  If I don't feel like making dinner I just put my apron on and there is a slight mind shift..get to work lady!




Just recently I went to a low Latin mass and my friend lent me her veil.  As soon as I put that pretty piece of lace on my head I knew I was a goner.  This is exactly what I need..a prayer uniform item. A visual reminder of what I should be doing and thinking...just like my shoe wearing all day and my apron habit.  Wearing a veil makes perfect sense for me.  I love it!



Our habits and the way we enter and engage in things really help form us, our attitudes and state of mind.  I have a favorite apron right now that is not especially pretty...but it has pockets and fits well in all the right places.  I pretty much wear the same gold flats EVERYDAY, unless it is SNOWING, or raining really hard..then I wear converse.  And now I will be wearing the black veil you see above to mass...until I make or buy another one.  I'm thinking this one or this one....but I just bought this one.  I like the infinity type.  Then you can wear it around your neck as you leave mass and get in the car, leaving it in the pew may not happen.

Wednesday, April 15, 2015

Yarn Along - Working Girl








This little town has a sweet little yarn shop.  As with most yarn shops the woman running it is amazing and makes the place what it is.  Last week she went out of town and asked me if I would run the shop for the few days she would be gone.  Winter hours are pretty short, she is only open 1-4.  Pete was able to take 1/2 days those days and I got to work for yarn...literally...she paid me in yarn.

It was delightful.  When I opened up on Wednesday the store was what better place to be when it is freezing than in a yarn store?  I slipped on one of her samples and I fell in LOVE with what I had put on.

It  was the Easy Folded Poncho by Churchmouse Yarns knit with Madeline Tosh sock yarn.  I very badly wanted to OWN that garment.  It sadly took me all 3 days of my yarn working career to figure out what yarn to knit it in.  I swatched several yarns and finally decided on a dk weight in a gray/black colorway.

I loved being in that store for those 3 days...but you do have to sit and knit a lot and I admit to being a bit antsy to have to sit still for so long.  Owning a knitting shop like this one is definitely listed as a dream...but for now I think I will just fill in when the timing is right.